By Hazel Smith, TIWP Student

i was talking to my favorite person the other day

she smiled, she was talking about her boyfriend

she told me a story about spending the day with him last weekend

she was animated and she was laughing

she told me i can’t see myself with anybody else

she told me I love him and he makes it so clear that he loves me back

she told me one day she was getting gas,
he was waiting in the car as she swiped her card and selected the diesel fuel option

he screamed.
he jumped out of the car.
he said “Lillie you can’t put that in the tank you’ll ruin the engine
you’ll kill the car”

and she screamed and she said “how do i change it” and he fixed it

she filled up the tank

and i got to thinking what would happen if i chose the wrong option while i was filling up my car with gas

i’d ruin the engine, i’d kill the car

because there’s nobody watching me from the passenger seat,
there’s nobody paying attention when I do the wrong thing

there’s no boyfriend there’s no best friend there’s no love of my life there’s just me

and i screw up all the time

so while she told the story, i smiled
while she told the story, i told her “oh my god you guys are the cutest couple”

and while she told the story, i worried for my future

and i worried for the future of my car